Friday, February 25, 2011

Smile might be fake but at least these pants are size SMALL!

I am still sad with the current situation of a certain few family members. So don't think my excitement has overpowered the heart break. I will, however, keep greeting everyday with a smile until my smile is fully legit. We've all been there. Don't fault me for being a human with a heart. As of recently, I had an 'insult to injury' incident and all I can say is God is watching and I know that I have upheld my end of the deal. If there is anything I can take from that incident it would be that assumptions really do make people look like 'asses'. Heehaw. Heehaw. Now on to more important things.

Although I have been let down by the slow down of weight loss on the scale, I have managed to find positive vibes in another area of my journey. Clothing size! As I approached the work out clothing in Target last night, I really didn't want to try anything on but I was clueless as to what size to grab. In a past life, I would have reached for large and left it at that. In my optimism, at the end of last year, I found a bunch of mediums on clearance and jumped on them knowing that I would fit them sooner than later. I did fit in them. I fit in them sooner than I even thought possible and lately, those mediums have been slipping and sliding and I blamed the 'sweat'. As if I wanted to think of myself actually being smaller than a medium! That's just nonsense. Or is it? So there I was scoping out the sales and running my fingers over the mediums, glancing at the larges and scoffing at the smalls. I seen 'clearance' and thought it was worth maybe peeking at. And if you ever notice on clearance racks that every time you go for your size, its never there! It's either really large...or really small. Well, that was the case with me for the 100th time this year and for the 100th time this year, I was going to walk away but! there was those size smalls seemingly haunting me with their $2.00 price tag. I dove in and grabbed 2. Gave it zero thought until we got home. I was super excited last night to get home because I bought me a sauna suit. What could be more fun than basically wearing a garbage bag while riding bike? Um, nothing! So I ran upstairs 2 at a time because I can do that now, and grabbed some work out clothes. I slowed my roll when I remembered those size smalls. I kept going back and forth in my mind. If I try them on and they are too small for comfort, I may be let down but then the other part of me is screaming "DO IT!" and I did. And they fit. Snug but not snug enough for any lack of comfort. A nice snug actually. The snug that allows you to work out without having to stop and  pull up your pants. A snug that gives the butt a bit of a lift along with the self esteem. In my small victorious moment, I went to show the rest of the family and Rhonny says, "Gee, Mom, you could just borrow my clothes now." Laughing, I went back up and tossed on that sauna suit that I couldn't wait to try and hopped on the bike. First 5 minutes I was thinking to myself that it's not working. In the next 5 minutes I was telling myself that maybe I shouldn't have started off so fast. The following 5 minutes I maintained 44mph thinking I might as well be crazy, after all, I was basically wearing a garbage bag. After 20 minutes, the suit was sticking to every part of my body and it sorta reminded me of saran wrap. The suit promises an extra 75 calories burnt in 15 minutes so I decided I was going to go for 30 minutes which is usually 300 calories without the suit. I hit 30 minutes and sweat was running down my arms under my suit and out the elastic band around my wrist and dripping off my pinkie in a steady stream. I knew my purchase was working at that moment and decided it was time to slow down and get off and see what exactly was going on under the suit that clung. I was laughing and disgusted all at once. Peeling off the suit, I looked like I just stepped out of the shower with my clothes on. Seriously. So all of that for an extra 175 calories on top of my 300. I would say that 475 calories in 30 minutes is very worth the $10 I spent on the sauna suit and if you are pressed for time and only get a half hour for cardio, this may give you the extra boost you need towards your weightloss goals. I am not sure how much of an overall difference it will make but I plan on using it from now on, even during my 60 minute cardio time. I will let you know if I see extreme changes. Be sure to remember we need to be drinking water. LOTS of water. Also as a selfish purchase last night, I bought another Jillian workout. No More Trouble Zones. I just did it for the first time. I made it all the way through and I LOVE IT!!! I wanted something more targeted and something for my upper body because I really feel my lower body is significantly stronger than the rest. This is it! It feels amazing. She really helps you hit those target areas that we all love to hate. It's 40 minutes of sweating that you will love afterwards. I hope that I feel sore tomorrow. I haven't felt sore after a good work out in quite some time and I fear that I am not doing enough or pushing enough. I hope this gives me the challenges I need. When I can afford it, I will be trying out Bob Harper's Kettleball and DVD. I really want to boost my upper body. If you have tried it, I would love to hear your stories and experiences. Keep pressing forward with your exercises. Keep expecting more from yourself. If you tell yourself you can't, you have already set yourself up to failure. If you tell yourself you can't, than you won't. Don't put limitations on yourself. Age has no part in the goals you set for yourself. Time is no excuse. If you have time to watch your favorite show, you have time to get on your treadmill, bike, elliptical...whatever it may be. You have the time and make the time because you desire the change. Nothing is what you get when you decide you don't want to sacrifice something to get ahead. Breathe life into your actions, your movements, your decisions, your thoughts and you will propel yourself forward in a positive direction. Sometimes we all need to push a little further out to find joy that we didn't know could exist. My body is pretty happy these days and I am going to keep treating it as a temple, a gift. It's important to realize that this gift that we have been given can be used in so many different ways and the more positive we put out, the more positive we take in. Let not just your actions show love but let your minds and words be filled with love too. You never know who's heart you may touch or who's heart needs mending. Recently, I've had really mean things said to me and about me, and I really am at a sad time in my life and those things are not so easy to disregard when we are at a low point. Think about that before you say things to people. You could be the force that pushes them off the edge even if that isn't your intentions. I am grateful for the outpouring of love and loyalty and support from family and friends recently who sent messages, comments, phone calls, and texts my way to help uplift my broken spirit. You are the ones that make this world a better place and you are so kind in your thoughts and actions that you may never realize your worth to someone. I am blessed to have all of you in my life. Your kindness has gotten me back in the exercise workout routines that I have learned to love. If I could pay back the love that I have felt this week, I would and I may try.